I decided to devote today's blog to change. I've always liked my life constant, the same, predictable, and very afraid of change. But this time of my life is finding great change. There are so many changes that I've had to decide, change can be good. Without change I cannot realize my dreams, my potential, and ultimately success.
The first change I'm dealing with is I'm moving to a new home. I've lived in my current home for 18+ years. It's the only home my son Ian can remember. A lot of life has happened between these walls. There has been joy and there has been pain. But it is time to say goodbye and start a new and better life in a new home. I am very excited but again, very scared. Moving has left me absolutely exhausted. I have been finally picking up work with my second job which is good because the move is proving to be very expensive. Add in the second job and moving, well, needless to say Laura is getting very little sleep.
I'm so thankful to Ron for doing as much as he's been doing. He has been moving items each night, assembling new items, and repairing the new house. He's allowed me to keep on working while he works until he falls into bed bone tired. Ian has also been a great help with the move. He moved into the new house a week ago and comes over to the old house to make a load while Ron is at work. We've had great teamwork, but I think this weekend is going to be the killer weekend. We're hoping to get all we need so we can start staying at the new house by the end of this weekend.
The other big change has been what's been happening with my body. I've lived in this overweight body for probably a good 25 years with the last 20 being the worst. Though most may not think this is true, it is very scary to change what you've known for so long. There is comfort and familiarity with all that flubber. But as I'm finding out, change can be good. No I take that back, change not only can be good, change IS good.. As I struggle to find clothes that aren't hanging on me I can smile for a job well done. I still am feeling great. I am having success. I KNOW this change is going to stick.
Because of the time constraints with the moving and working the 2 jobs I have not been able to exercise like I need. I'm not sure but this could be the reason my loss was smaller this week. Well, that and I suspect stress plays into it too. 5 hours of sleep a night is not exactly what I would call optimal. I feel like a walking zombie. But this too shall pass and once I get settled I can get back to having normalcy and a well-oiled schedule back into my life. Then I can settle into my changed environment and feel all safe and secure once again. That is until the next big change I make. And I do plan on making many more to come.
Since I have not blogged for a couple of weeks I have 2 pictures. I find it humorous that even though I have lost from the first to the second that I actually look heavier in the latter. As fashion stylists preach, clothes can add or subtract weight. I'll worry about that later when I'm at a constant weight. For now, I am just happy to fit into clothes I've never worn and have been sitting in my closet because I "planned" on losing weight one day. I guess that plan came to fruition. Now I can do that happy dance.
October 14, 2012 255 (75 pounds lost)
